Yeah! It’s good to be posting stuff again… this has been one of my longer absences. Studying is lots of work, and things like this poor little blog tend to fall by the wayside. However, the absence of creative flow in my life makes itself felt after a while. It feels strange to make a fractal I’m proud of and neglect to show it to you guys, leaving it to gather virtual dust on my hard drive. I can almost feel the bytes lingering, blocking my creative energies. I’d never do that deliberately, of course, at least not consciously… therein lies the problem.
Look at this image, let it sink in. Let it invigorate your spirit, refresh your mind, give you strength. It will loosen knots you didn’t even know you had.
A sphere, an opening to a different dimension. Through the narrow crack I see hints of things that were, are, and could be.
There are things hidden so deep within us that we don’t even know them to be there. It’s unsettling, to say the least, when they suddenly start showing themselves. But knowing oneself is a first step. Not towards leaving the past behind, but towards integrating it into one’s being.
For me, art has always been the vessel that takes me both towards the divine and towards the depths within myself. Even if the journey can be painful at times, I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
It’s amazing to see just how much one can improve in the span of a couple of years. I recently found this old fractal in my files, and decided to update it to reflect my current skill level.
The mystery of the vortex has been in this piece right from the start though, and no amount of technical proficiency could have compensated for the lack of that. Revisiting the past reminds me of how magical the whole process felt back then. Being able to even create something at all, having complete control over this tiny universe within an editor. It was exhilarating, and my writings from that time reflect that breathlessness, the complete amazement at my newly found passion.
I’ve grown up a lot since then, but once thing I promise myself is to never lose that sense of childlike wonder. It’s the stuff life is made from.