Peace

Slade has done it again. He took a simple concept and put it into words in a way that has deep implications. His latest post, Spinning your Story, talks about how we can transform the stories of our own life simply through a new perspective. The Stories that No Longer Serve You, the original piece that inspired his follow-up, is also purely magical. These two posts were the firestarters of what I’m writing about here, the changes I’ve been going through recently.

Our continual experience of this life is nothing more but a single moment traveling along the axis of time, changing at every interval. That is our prime human quality, our ability to evolve, to move away from the things we no longer wish for, to align our lives with our self declared purpose. In short, spinning our stories.

I used to be – still am, to some extent – a violent person. My emotions have carried me away more times than I can count, bringing me right to the edge, thankfully allowing me to stop right before irreversibly crossing the line. But after much searching within me for the cause of this seemingly unwanted behaviour, I came to a baffling conclusion: the energy behind these impulses I have felt isn’t something bad; it’s actually the source of my passion, my inspiration. The violent states I have found my mind in are too often just a way for my spirit to express a primal, creative urge that I haven’t really given an opportunity to come forward through other means.

I realize that I am able to transform the violence I feel into something different. Chaos can be destruction, but also creation – ultimately, both of these opposites join in a single circle of endless transformation. Physical matter continually changes form; oceans to clouds to rain to rivers, and so on. The same also applies to the matter of the mind, the heart and the spirit.

Now I finally have an explanation for those spontaneous bursts of passion overcoming me from time to time, those rare but overwhelmingly strong urges to create art, causing actual, physical pain to me if I don’t drop everything to follow them to the artistic extremes they will inevitably lead me.

That is what happened to me that other day when I made a fractal that expressed pure violence, an energy that burst out of me right onto the digital canvas, interrupting the midst of a regular, dull day at my job. It urged me to say what I couldn’t find words for at the time, releasing a vital passion from deep within me, making me feel like my spiritual lifeblood was being splattered across the screen.

It’s hard to explain if you haven’t lived it. My spirit was screaming, forcing me sit up and take notice; Social inhibitions and self-imposed responsibilities faded away, leaving room only for pure creative instinct. A long confined energy was liberated in the midst of a whirlpool of conflicting feelings. It was simultaneously maddening and exhiliarating.

Since that day, I have been consciously spinning my story, transforming a life of frustration, stress and repressed creativity into that of an artist on the path to self-discovery. Choosing to gain my bread elsewhere allows me to fully delve into my work without tainting it by thoughts of profit and marketability. I am starting to develop a sense of compassion, total acceptance of all the elements present in my life. I finally feel that I am beginning to know what I stand for. I am decyphering the message, and if there was only one thing I could pass on to others in my lifetime, it would be this:

All human beings are capable of creative expression. Rather than having you admire my art, I’d rather inspire you to make your own, whatever form it takes. Not all works of art are free, but Art, the right to create it, to feel it, to express it, is. Art is larger than any category we could slap on it. It’s so much more than just painting, sculpting, writing or making movies. It is a way of life, a way to express our divine spark in every action we take.

This has always been the underlying current of my blog, but now I have finally found the clarity to put it into words. This is a rather long post by my standards, and to wrap it up, I’d like to share with you a new spin I’ve put on a fractal you’re already familiar with, mixing up the same ingredients into something totally different, yet strangely familiar. I am calling it peace.

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  1. January 26, 2008 at 11:13 am

    Vitor,

    Thank you so much for the compliment “He took a simple concept and put it into words in a way that has deep implications.”

    I guess the pressure is on to keep repeating that. I don’t know when I’ve accomplished that, so hearing how something impacts you is extremely helpful to me.

  2. January 26, 2008 at 11:21 am

    Slade,

    Your writing is always of a very high standard, so don’t worry about it too much.

    In my case, I always get a gut feeling before publishing a post about wether or not is is really a good piece. It’s a quality that transcends words. Sometimes, logically brilliant pieces can turn out to be duds, but on the contrary even the simplest words can deeply inspire.

  3. January 27, 2008 at 10:33 pm

    Vitor, as usual, I love the picture. I know you call it Peace but I can almost see, feel, sense a clinched fist in the middle of it. That is your passion speaking to me. Passion is such a strong emotion. My creativity, and it comes in many forms for me, is a safe way for me to get in touch with my passion. I write, draw and quilt out my passion as you do yours on a canvas. I have even done a few paintings that were a way of me getting in touch with feelings. That was about 15 years ago. Please keep doing what you are doing. It speaks volumes.

  4. January 29, 2008 at 9:10 pm

    Patricia,

    Yes, even in peace there is passion. It is the same passion as before, the passion I’ve always had, expressed in a new and different way.

    I’ve been getting more in touch with my feelings too, lately. Leaving my mind entirely out of the equation for a while has been very liberating.

  5. debnohio
    February 5, 2008 at 2:55 pm

    Hello Vitor,

    I see we have blogging friends in common. 🙂

    Seeing your name on at the StumbleUpon pages, I decided
    to hop over and see your blog.

    This post being the second one I’ve read.

    WOW……. When reading this message I felt like I was walking
    down a path in a beautiful, thick, overgrown forest. The kind
    of path with vines and trees that obscure most of the view ahead.
    But what can be seen ahead is a tiny light……. and then the further
    down the path that tiny light grows larger and you come to
    a clearing and that clearing is ~Peace~

    Upon viewing the picture… it was like double, triple WOW !!!

    Simply beautiful.

    I’m a watercolor artist, but I direct so little of my time
    and attention to my painting. Reading your words has
    inspired me to JUST DO IT. You’ve inspired me to DO MY OWN.

    Thank you too for how you’ve explained your life path in
    the words you have with this post.

    XO XO
    Deb

    http://deb_inside.typepad.com/

  6. February 5, 2008 at 5:58 pm

    Deb,

    Yes, I know, I have been over on your blog a couple of times already.

    I’m impressed that you would get such an amount of raw detail from this post, things I didn’t explicitly mention but which represent the spirit of my blog perfectly.

    Inspiring others to create their own art… that is truly the highest praise my writing will ever get!

    Thanks for also sharing a tiny part of your story here.

  7. debnohio
    February 6, 2008 at 6:41 pm

    Hi Vitor,

    Well, I did not create any watercolors today, but I made about 6 cards
    to send out to friends. Rubber stamped images and then colored in
    with pencils. I enjoy making my own cards and also it’s a great money saver. lol

    I’ve bookmarked this very page on my computer and named it…
    Water color inspiration. SO……. I might have to visit here often and if
    you check your stats you won’t have to wonder WHY this one page keeps
    getting viewed. 🙂

    Maybe my interpretation did not come from what you wrote, but by
    a ~connection~. I do feel we all have that ability to connect at a
    level that is beyond what is seen.

    xo xo
    Deb

  8. February 6, 2008 at 6:47 pm

    Deb,

    Yes, we DO have a connection that goes beyond what is seen, for which words and images are only vessels.

  9. debnohio
    February 8, 2008 at 12:00 pm

    ‘Love Is All There Is’

    Acrylic painting I did TODAY – Feb 8th and dedicated
    to YOU ~ Vitor. 🙂

    I have had black paper for sometime, but had yet
    to do any paintings with it. Also I might add that I have
    not done ANYTHING that might be considered abstract
    in over 32 years when I was in high school art class.

    To the connectivity and love we all share….

    XO XO
    Deb ~ smiling in Ohio

    http://deb_inside.typepad.com/

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